It seems like I've been saying sorry I lot these days..

I know a lot of people think that, "Oh, you act nice and innocent because y're an attention seeker". "You don't hang out with us because you think you're too cool for us". "You act cute and annoying to get attention" and a lot of other things I know people think about me. But, let's get thinkgs clear - I do and say things without meaning it in any other way and some people just take it the wrong way and miunderstand, through no fault of their own. I think people tend to think too much about some things - if someone wears something different, they're regarded as a show-off, if someone says something, others take it the wrong way and she's labelled a bitch. I guess it's a natural human instinct to find a reason or make an excuse to hate, gossip about, avoid. But you need to look beyond the not-so-pretty face, the 'bitchy' attitude, or the different-from-normal voice. When I tell people this, they say,?But I already know that person and she's so bitchy and up herself." Well, I ask you, "Do you really know them?" And this is coming from the fat little girl with the strange, high voice who used to get bullied - yours truly. =P Maybe it's my first-hand experiences of bullying that have made me a more understanding (sometimes) and empathetic person. If so, I'm glad for it. =)

These days I've been feeling shit and moody because of certain things so maybe others are taking it the wrong way, But I'm not angry at you, nor do I think about you in a bad way, so I'm so so so so so sorry. And you know who you are.. Even though I've said sorry so many times, I still feel bad and I don't know how to make it up to you =( Sorry sorry sorry.

It's strange. a year ago, maybe even a couple of months ago, if I knew someone hated me, I would have just tried to ignore it and "sweep it under the carpet", so to speak. But God works in ways I would never have expected.. and He sent someone into my life to change the mentality I've had for my (very-short) life. Even though things happened, or things didn't happen, depending on how you see it - happiness, laughter, sadness, tears - (and so sorry my lovely Tonia for waking you up.. ><) what I got out of it is something that is so precious to me - the courage to finally confront problems when they arise. Which is why I was able to say sorry to a lot of people and clear up certain misunderstandings..There are still some things I don't know if I can fix but I'll try my best. So thank you to this person for making me a better person and for making me realise who I am. You probably don't care anymore, but I am really really grateful for you. Thank you thank you thank you.

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EDIT: Actually, I think I will remain anonymous.. ><