Musing at 10:55pm. 7/10/08.

Do emos get hot in summer? I remember last week when it was like 32 degrees, and while I was sitting there in my car, the old aircon blasting full on in my face and sweat dewed on the back of my singlet, we came past a group of emos in full BLACK LONG SLEEVE TOP, BLACK MINI SKIRT, BLACK STOCKINGS and BLACK BOOTS. And it wasn't just one layer either! The chick must've worn at least two layers out there in the blistering heat. And PLUS, according to the science experiment we did in year 8 with those funny conical flasks - black absorbs ALOT more heat right? *shakes head* I feel sorry for them. It's a tough life being an emo.

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Why are people so influenced by their surroundings? Sometimes these changes do not happen overnight, but they slowly catch up to you without you noticing, until you suddenly look back and realise how much you've changed because of them.

You know, I used to never think I was one of those people who were easily changed because of my peers. But then something else happened which eventually, after about a year, finally made me realise how affected I was during that period of time, and how damaging it was for me without noticing.

Thankfully I've pretty much gotten over that and I'm so much better than before. It's a slow process and I was so caught up in everything that I could not see what other people could see that I was becoming. I still find it hard to understand how I fell into that particular state of mind and how stupid I was to undergo through something which I've always been disgusted at before.

Don't get me wrong, I still love my friends no matter what. I'm just saying that no matter what happens, they will always affect in one way or another, sometimes subconsciously and gradual. It's not like they tell you to do things against your will, but their beliefs sometimes can come to influence and shape your beliefs, and it's up to you whether it's for the benefit or the worse.