Psht. All this leadership talk must be getting to my head.

First of all, as you all know some of us went to the LEadership Conference 08 at Parramatta Town hall, which appeared to be as large as my bedroom. So, over 8 schools crammed in and for the first half an hour or so we were forced to "socialize" with the rest of the schools. Who were evidently trying to dig up subjects to talk about, due to the fact that 99% of us asians were doing most of the nodding-in-agreement-while-smiling side of things. Omfg. Being forced to be brave is not fun =. Like, trying to make us socially braver and all that is tres nice of the instructor, but what if we DON'T want to be people people? I mean, I'm DEFINITELY not one of those super super people people. I mean yes it is good to know how to socialize with strangers but no you don't have to ALWAYS be part of a crowd.

And all that stuff about "bla bla now I know what my goal in life is seize the opportunity: you CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE! Oh allah, take chances and HELP OTHERS REALIZE THIS. Now. Do as I say. put your left arm around your right ear. Now pinch your nose with the right. No swap. OK stop. Put your fingers in the air. HARRRHHHH! YOU ALL PUT YOUR THUMBS UP! YOU KNOW WHY? Because I DID! Now what's the catch phrase of this lesson? YES ANYONE? VOILA: "ACTIONS ARE LOUDER THAN WORDS! " When you go back to school the next day, I want to see you BEGIN THIS JOURNEY. "

etcetc. let's be sophisticated for one moment please. People who live like the above should really consider taking a chill pill. OK, that was harsh. Maybe they take pride and find joy in doing what they do. But I bet you, when they were kids at school they were loners and didn't care what others thought of them. But honestly, does everybody here love try-harding, pickups rubbish at lunchtimes, teachers pets, gives their movie tickets to others type of people? ==. What happened to Jo's lecture about doing everything you can do as a kid because you only have those few years of a lfietime to be able to do so?

Hmmmmmmmmmmm. Talking about this stuff is so wierd. It's making me depressed D=. Seems a bit dodgy that we were all born to "MAKE a DIFFERNECE" ain't it? o.o''

Sometimes I wish life wasn't so complicated so we wouldn't have to suffer the many adversities that we do, or have such a high chance of being lead into depression. Sometimes I wish I was another animal. WTF O.O''''' I think I'm hallucinating. Better get some sleep. Seriously, I went to sleep at six and got up at 8 for dinner feeling sick and stoned, because I had previously consumed 2 tim tams, a whole lebanese bread wrap, a bowl of vanilla yoghurt, a yakult lactobactillus drink, and I bought 2 dohnuts from epping bakery before that X__X before sleeping. Actually, I wake up every evening feeling like that. I should probably start getting a life and sleeping early and everynight so that I don't become nocturnal. I don't even do anything these days, except sing and listen to music and reading hp 7 at like, 10 pages per day coz i keep falling asleep in between.

Just rambling on, never mind me.

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